I will instruct you and teach you in the way you should go; I will counsel you with my eye upon you.

Psalm‬ ‭32‬:‭8

In addiction we seek after the next temporal piece of satisfaction. We attune ourselves with living in the moment but digressing away from the path of truth. We are slowly becoming a person we don’t really want to be.

Turning around happens in a moment, but getting well continues for a lifetime.

I hear the popular mantra of being the best version of myself and appreciate the idea. But I’ve got to realize what it truly means.

If I aspire to this ideal—if I aspire to seek to model myself after God—then I can only ever hope to be the worst best version of myself each day.

And this is a good thing! I should be making strides toward improving each day. Hopefully the grievous errors are few and far between, but I’m not going to ever arrive at my destination.

I’m not ever going to be perfect. I’m not ever going to stop trying to live under His protection, care and grace.

Baby steps forward guide me toward God’s will one day at a time. Iterative improvement does not ever have to stop. And shouldn’t.

I hope I’m continuing to lean forward into God’s will for all time. I hope I don’t fall into an illusion that once I reach a certain level I can sit back and coast. I hope I can continue to look for the opportunities He is placing in front of me daily.

This version of myself is still human. It may be better than yesterday, but I hope I keep growing into tomorrow.

God, don’t let me stagnate.