Inconvenienced
S8:E17

Inconvenienced

His divine power has granted to us all things that pertain to life and godliness, through the knowledge of him who called us to his own glory and excellence.

2 Peter‬ ‭1‬:‭3

I can remember vividly thinking, “what could I possibly do to help someone else?” I wasn’t sober long enough, I wasn’t old enough, I didn’t know enough…

Yet, the advice remained the same: ask God to send me someone I can help. I was supposed to start praying for the opportunity to carry the message to someone new.

I didn’t think this was a good idea yet. I was only a handful of months into my own sobriety. But apparently, I was equipped enough, by my sponsor’s estimation, to share my experience up to that point.

Working the steps seemed stupidly easy before I was willing to actually do them. Now that I’d actually begun them with the guidance of someone else, they seemed a precarious lifeline I ought not start tossing around to others.

Fear crept around at the base of my misgivings. I didn’t want to unintentionally misinform. I didn’t want to not know an answer. I didn’t want to screw something up.

Even in trying to be willing to help others, I remained caught in my own insecurities and uncertainties.

Fortunately, God uses broken, uncertain people all the time if they’re willing to be vessels. This was the good news I began to see as I remained willing.

I didn’t need all the answers. I needed to honestly share my experience. I needed to be willing to reach out for help and counsel myself when I was approached with a situation I didn’t know how to handle.

My own sponsor remained a guide and confidant. God remained the anchor toward which we all pointed. And I continued to grow.

God, keep me willing to carry the message even when it’s inconvenient.