Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge him and he will make your paths straight.

Proverbs 3:5-6

It’s often said in recovery circles that acceptance is the answer to all our problems.

It’s often argued that we shouldn’t accept unacceptable behavior.

And healthy spiritual principles often devolve into heated emotional debates.

I wish I knew the full extent of why God allowed me to walk the path that my life has taken. And more—I wonder what impact I might have had if I’d made better choices sooner.

But we are where we are. And I do see the benefit that my crap decisions then have on my influence now.

We’re charged to trust, regardless. The sooner we start doing this and actively seeking his will in our lives, the sooner we can leave the meat grinder of addiction.

Now, in sobriety, let’s not keep trying to lean on our own understanding. Analysis is good as far as it’ll go, but what happens when we run out of answers?

Will I trust in him even if I never understand the why?

Will I accept that there are reasons even if in this life I don’t get to know them all?

God, let it be enough for me that you are enough for me.