Again Jesus spoke to them, saying, “I am the light of the world. Whoever follows me will not walk in darkness, but will have the light of life.”

John‬ ‭8‬:‭12

In another effort to put and leave God first in my life and my thoughts, I’ve begun praying today that he would take the things that typically have most of my focus on any particular day.

My sense of security and the desire for financial stability.

My sense of fun and the desire to have excellent hobbies.

My plans and my goals and the constant barrage of them

My own understanding and the planning that springs from what I think I know

These things have for quite some time taken over the top focus areas of my life. I don’t want to blot God out, but I realize that with him not at the top spot, that’s what happens.

This is another version of the selfishness that birthed my addiction.

It’s a subtle hook that sets in each of us.

There is danger of sliding into our old vices if we exercise these self-centered tendencies long enough.

I am offering these things back and praying for God to be my focus and strength and wisdom–that he would guide me to the things I should dwell on, but that the dwelling might not turn to obsession that blocks him out again.

God, live at the center of my life.