But the Lord is faithful. He will establish you and guard you against the evil one.

‭‭2 Thessalonians‬ ‭3‬:‭3

What takes us so long to get better when some people seem to be on the right track from the get go?

Willingness. And my lack of it.

Why, in the face of all evidence to the contrary, and despite my best efforts, could I not straighten myself out?

Power. And my lack of it.

Why do we go to such lengths to avoid help?

Honesty. And my lack of it.

Sobriety will deflate my ego faster than anything. And it’s for this reason that it is often a revolving door.

We desperately want to be the hero of our own lives. Or at least the director.

But it’s not setup that way. We run out of room to navigate. Always.

Affluence, intelligence and luck extend the runway, but at some point we come face to face with the facts. And the cold truth is that we have little idea how to structure and operate our own inner life.

We have established an external life that we thought we’d enjoy. But addiction and the self-serving tendencies that come along with it have hollowed out the joys that we thought fueled us.

I need perpetual spiritual motion. I need what I cannot provide.

My lack of power opens the door of willingness. Willingness to seek His help, forgiveness and strength.

God, help me be honest with myself and others.